What I really wanna say...

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 02:57:22 GMT

get outta my head

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 00:19:44 GMT

meep

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 14:08:28 GMT

alright! i am pissed! why cant anything ever go my way? i havent gotten financial aide yet..and i am supposed to start baker on monday...yah..dont see it happening. fuck them. so i get on my computer to rant about it in my myspace..and myspace is down. fuck them too! fuck you all!!!!!!!!!

fuck you

godddamnit

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 05:40:14 GMT

NEW PICS ON MYSPACE!

do you like violence

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 05:48:06 GMT

well kristinas wedding is tomorrow, and i should be asleep..but like normal...i woke up at noon, so i am not tired at all. ummmm...tomorrow should be fun. it doesnt actually feel like shes getting married, but i guess she is. eh whatever floats her boat...

open bar

cool shoes

amanda is a happy camper!

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 03:23:32 GMT

Have you ever dialed someones number, knowing that they couldn't answer, and you let it ring and just waited till their voicemail came on, just so you could hear their voice? Have you ever done it over and over again? I have...I do it all the time. I just can't help it. I miss him soooo much and I can't see him when I want to. I just want to talk to him, or just hear his voice, even if it is just for a split second. I can't go an hour with out hearing his voice, with out closing my eyes and picturing his. His eyes are just so beautiful, so intense, that even thinking about them takes my breath away. His touch is so loving that it makes my heart skip a beat. When he holds me I just want to stay that way forever. I don't care about anything else but being in his arms. I don't want to let go, but I know eventually, I will have to. I know that eventaully we will have to say goodbye. But I know that I will see him again, and I will hear his voice, even if I have to call his phone and listen to his voicemail. I can't help but think about him constantly and just want with all of my heart to be with him. I want to be with him right now...at this very moment. I miss him so much it hurts.

useless

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 03:34:16 GMT

this thing is getting useless..i never use it anymore...ive got a myspace! haha

anyways...sisters wedding is in 2 weeks...FUCK YAH TIME TO GET WASTED! and yes that is the only reason i am going..i could give a fuck about the wedding..i dont agree with it and they are both douche bags.

DOUCHE BAGS!

at any rate..lifes been good...real good.

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 17:58:06 GMT

IF You're Broke She's SPITTIN'

IF You're Rich She Might SWALLOW

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 19:49:17 GMT

hey whats up..

new pics on my myspace..check em out!

just click on my website like retard. :D

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 23:46:10 GMT

haha my mom just told me i smoke weed in the basement...SWWEEET!

o snap

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 16:55:47 GMT

um i saw a guy with a hook for a hand yesterday. whew.

danny is coming over tonight!

i have to go into work early.

fucking eh.

im real tired.

its cold outside and i have no sweaters.

take a hint

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 17:29:12 GMT

um...yesterday was good. went to my dannys and hung out with him till he had to go to work. then i went and visited my mom...she got out this morning so shes doing really good. after i got home yesterday i went to aprils with erin and chilld with scarlet and i learned how to play eucre...i think thats howits spelled..eh well im a moron.

danny is coming over saturday when i get offa work and staying the night with me! i cant wait. as uncomfortable as it is, i love sleeping in my twin bed with him..cuz we are just so close...plus i actuall sleep through the night when hes there. ahhh anyways..enough of the mush....

tomorrow i am going to get a custume cuz i am going trick or treating this year!!! woohooo...me and april are going to have a party and trick or treat at her moms! im happy. i want to carve a pumpkin...bad. i dont know why..but i told dan to gank me one from blakes and let me carve it! woooohoo.

you disappoint me

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 04:33:35 GMT

well the past whatever have been great. but the other day i thought about how things were like...almost 2 years ago..when my relationship was on the rocks and shit..and it depressed me..there are still sooo many unanswered questions and suspisions...but i dont bring them up anymore..they are just soo old and he probably wont remember anyways..but it still eats me up inside to think about back then. i mean everything is absolutely perfect now...i mean i couldnt ask for better...but knowing about how everything used to be...kills me. i mean im over it for the most part..but there are days when i think about it...it still gets to me. i know that things are like 500 percent better than they were.. i used to cry because i didnt know where he was, who he was with, or what he was doing..and now i cry because i do know and i cant be with him. sunday night i actually cried when he left..because i know i wont see him for days..because i knew that i already missed him before he even let go of me...because i know i will always love him...i just love him so much...i cant beleive we have made it this far

i am god...

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 01:02:13 GMT

today is mine and dans....3 year and 8 months anniversary...haha 4 more months and it will be four years...woohoo! i just realized that earlier..since like the second year, i havent kept track of the months..so i sat down and counted and that is what it is! woohoo!

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 04:17:06 GMT

i hate being friggin bored.. my mom went into the hospital earlier...i hate not knowing how she is...today really did suck.

shit im broke...and bored....real bored.

someone talk to me....

haha

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i now use this journal for random nothingness....

how fun is that

fucking eh man...

there are these sweet pumas at work..i want them..

75 bucks..but for me they are 18 sweet! i love mt work!

sheesh

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 18:35:17 GMT

me and my sis were supposed to go to halloweekends...but im about broke...heres what i need to do this weekend....

-get sideview mirror for my car
-get new fuel filter for my car
-possibly get tires for my car
-buy shampoo and bodywash
-get a cheap new phone because mine dies every 2 minutes
-pay artie back some money
-pay my g-ma and pa some money for car payment
-go to armada to have dan fix all that shit on my car

yep so im about broke.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 16:54:42 GMT

In the last 24 Hours have you...
1. Had sex: unfortunately no
2. Bought something: yep
3. Gotten sick: No
4. Been kissed: No
5. Eaten something: yah..but that was yesterday im hungry now.
6. Felt stupid: nope
7. Talked to an ex: no
8. Missed someone: yes
9. Hugged someone: no
Last person who....
1. Slept in your bed: other than me..dan, but i was there too.
2. Saw you cry: prolly dan...but then again..i dont remember the last time i cried
3. Made you cry: dont remember
4. You went to the movies with: um april and ryan i belive..
5. You went to the mall with: myself..i dont shop at the mall.. i just pay my phone bill there..or smoke in the parking lot.
Have You...
1. Been to California: nope
2. Been to Mexico: No
3. Been to China: No
4. Been to Canada: Yes
5. Been to Europe: No
6. Been to Central America: No
some more questions...
1. Do you have a crush on someone: nope
2. What book are you reading now: i dont read books..
3. Worst feeling in the world: loving someone sooo much...but not being able to see them.
4. Future KIDS names: i dont want kids but if i do..i like haley danae for a girl..if its a boy, well ima hafta put a lil more thought into it.
6. What's under your bed: spiders..and some boxes.
7. Favorite sport to watch: eh i dont like any of em
8. Favorite Location: armada. thats sad.
9. Piercing/Tattoos: yes and yes...
10. Do you drink: like a fish
11. What are you most scared of right now: money
12. Where do you want to get married: outside when the leaves are changing.
13. Who do you really hate: people.
14. Do you like being around people: some
15. Have you ever liked someone you have no chance with: hasnt everybody?
16. Have you ever cried: yes
17. Are you lonely right now: no i have me cell phone.
18. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: um..ya know i had this peice of shit song stuck in my head but i cant remember it..
19. Been in love: yes
20. Played strip poker: nope
21. Gotten beaten up: nope
22. Been on radio/TV: yes actually
23. Been in a mosh-pit: nope
24. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yah...one of my old best friends was a lesbo..i loved that girl.
25. Skinny dipped: nopre
26. Real name: amanda
27. Height: 5'5"
28. Favorite food: mm italian...food...im hungry
29: Drink: whatever..

longtimenosee

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 16:11:33 GMT

hum..lots and lots has happened...if youre not close to me, then you dont know. but to everyone else...yay..that was fun! whew...b-day party today for my mom and artie..shwing! nothing else is really new...

space man

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 15:40:34 GMT

this weekend was fantastic. absolutely wonderful...really it was. even though all anyone did was work on dannys derby car..but its fun...got it going...reverse isnt really there and you really need that in a figure 8..but hes got a little bit of it..so thats good i guess. sunday night me, dan, and dave were all at jbs...and we got into the deepest conversation about space...it was actually left over from the night before...cuz there were a ton of us..and chase couldnt figure out if 2 things hit each other..would they bounce off, of stop completely...since there is now weight in space or anything that would make that happen here...so anyways...we are all talking and dave is like...is space really endless..im like yah. hes like but there has to be something out there. and im like..maybe there is...maybe we are bacteria on something else..WE ARE GERMS! and hes like yah..were germs...! hahahaha. so then jb is talking about the marble at the end of men in black...and stuff..we were coming up with all sorts of ideas about space...i was like..well suppose to little rocks are going at the same rate...and they collide, and just stops..so the 2 rocks make one..and then they bump into another one..and the rock keeps getting bigger...do you suppose that maybe thats how the earth was formed? they are like..wow i dont know...it was just crazy...so many things about space..i would just much rather sit here and not think about it when im ahem...sober..hahahahahahahahahahaha.hah. so yah work work work..my parents are pissy cuz i am going to dans derby instead of the shower..my mom is like...you at least need to get her a gift..yada yada yada...der. for petes sake...why does she need a gift? what are they gonna need..theyre getting married..but they aint living together for a long ass time...so what..a blender..a toaster...a couch??? what the hell? fuck it. at least i get to go to the derby.

i want a man that stands beside me

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 16:25:19 GMT

yesterday was super...i got up and went and cashed my check and then went and did a lil shopping..nothing to big. um....i got to dans at like 12:15 and i called before i got there..no answer...i got to his house and the garage door was open and his moms car was gone...so i knocked figuring dan had to be up...nope...no answer..so i went into town and got a slurpie from the gas station...on the way back to dans...i called him and im like thanks for answering the phone and the door ass..hes like what are you talkin about..i told him how i called and knocked and he was so passed out he couldnt hear either one..hes like whatever just get over here. so i did. then i noticed this white car riding my ass...low and behold its nathan...all dressed in a suit and tie for an interview...how cute. so nathan and me met up on dans street and started driving next to each other talking...till we got to dans..and then nathan said hi and bye and me and dan went back into town for some things..ended up picking odoyle and dan barnes up and running to jbs right quick...he wasnt there but we chilled at the picnic table anyways...he showed up like a half hour later. chilled some more and then went back to dans to work a lil on the derby car. dan left for work at 5 and then i took jb home and chilled at jbs for a minute...dans cousin...um...matt, and marie were there and we all sorta hung out...eventually...played some hacky sack!! woohoooooo! i misses hacky sack. i got back to warren at like...8 ish..a lil after.. went to scotts and chilled with april and scott...and then i went home and scott came back with me cuz bill was gonna pick him up...well bill was an hour late so me and scott chilled out front of my house for a minute....and that is all..

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 14:00:19 GMT

this week went by quick. i cant believe im actually up this early...voluntarily. hmm i guess its nice to be up this early..and Not have to be...so last night i came home like an hour early and my mom is like...are you drunk..and i go yes mom...she goes youve been crabby lately...i go well thats cuz im a mean drunk. and she goes seriously...ir your out drinkin or smokin...i wish you wouldnt. if you get caught..i dont have money to bail you out. so basically..if she had money itd be ok..lmao..im just kidding..i know what she means..but im definately not out drinking..well and driving anyways...but yah..so i just said i know mom....dont worry..and shes like i miss your silliness around here...so i guess i can act high when im at home...hahahha again..just kidding..but its food for thought...

got my check today....sweet...well last night when i got offa work..i gotta cash it and then go to aramda! i dont know if dan is taking off work today...but i will get to see him before he goes at least..then sunday and monday i have off so im going to his house...monday we might go to his sisters in jeto..for a pig roast. cool cool.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 16:12:28 GMT

well ever since i have gotten my car back..ive been going and going and going...and i dont think there is any stopping any time soon...ive got plans for like the next 2 weeks..this weekend was really fun...besides the fact that i worked 2 7 hour days which just happened to be saturday..AND sunday and now its tuesday and a have a 7 and a half hour day...goddamnit. anyways...back to this weekend. saturday when i got offa work, i went to dans..when i got there, they were already working on his car..there were a few people over helping, and then fucking fat crystal and one of her friends and nathans "girlfriend" i got there and me and jb started working on the rebel flag. did that while nathan got pelted with a paintball gun and chase tried to get the car to start...well the starter wasnt attached to the car so it didnt start...which they didnt figure out hey lets ground it out by putting it on the car and then see if it starts...so everybody left cuz it was dark out anyways...me dan and nathan all went over to jbs and chilled...there was a toad on the ground so i caught it and blew smoke in its face and pur it on the ground again. it just like...sat there for the longest time...it was funny...anyways...me and dan went back to his house a spent time with each other for a little bit then i went to my gmas...then to work in the morning and over to dans after that...wow...i jsut got my days confused...the paintball starter thing didnt happen till sunday..saturday they just took the crossmember out and we didnt start the flag till sunday....so anyways...sunday night...me and dan went back to jbs after working on the car again... dave came over and he bought a liter of captains..and dan and jb had 22 ounces...well we started a fire..and the fire department has been giving jb and his family a hard time about fires cuz our bonfires are huge and you can see them into town...so anyways..we started a fire, and everyone was pretty much wasted...well i hear sirens..so im like...hey i here sirens...and dans like what, dave looks at me and then jb goes dont even say that thats not funny..well 5 seconds later..weeoooweooo...dave jumps up and goes hide the booze...pull the fire apart!!!! so i grab what i gotta grab and then i see dans beer on the couch....yes theres a couch by the fire pit..i grab it and my hands are full with a bunch of shit...beer...pot bottle...everything..and im walking across the yard just laughing hysgterically..while everyone is trying to contain the fire...dan grabbed a bucket of water and jb and dave spread the fire out..nobody ever came though...so we started it up again and chilled for the night...yesterday..hmm...i didnt work so i went to dans early and took the tape offa the flag...so now all we need is the blue...dave came over and put the starter in and the car .....starts! sweet. so thats good. it ran nice. after we got it started, dave drove us into richmond so dan could get some shit for his car...and then we went back to dans..dave left. and then me and dan had to say goodbye so he could go to work...i came back to warren and chilled with scott april and ryan...we went to helmich at like 9:30 and scott pushed me and april on the tire swing...note to self dont let them do that again...my god...that was fun..but like we almost hit our heads on the top bar and we spun so fast...it was nuts. but yah that is that.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 20:57:58 GMT

funny how livejournal was so cool..and now myspace is all the rage.

sweet

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 20:16:28 GMT

well my car is back. sweet..i got to go out today..and im going out later. fun fun. um...i think im going to emerald tonight, ive been wanting to ... but now i kinda want to take my car and run! yep.

thats it! thats the beat to funky town

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 02:07:42 GMT

this weekend has been good and bad so far..let us begin..friday i had the day off...woohoo. dan picked me up and we went to his house. a little later we went to goodells to watch the autocross..which was stupid. there was no action. the best part was when the golf carts raced. so we decided to leave. well a train hit a car..we were sitting waiting for the train to roll through and we here AAAARRRR ARRRRRRR ERRRRRRRR! and dans like..did someone just hit a dog? 3 minutes later these 2 kids came walking by the line of traffic and said what happened...so we turned around and so did everyone else..we got lost and finally had to go up to emmet to get back to the e-way. on the way to goodells, we missed our exit and had to drive 5 miles to the next one. i had to piss so bad, so we pulled onto this road and there was field with a bulldozer in it, so i made him pull over and we went pee next to it. sweet. that was the longest piss of my life..not that anyone cares...so yah...when we got back to armada, we went to the gas station..johnny rolled up with o'doyle and then dave showed up. there was an empty ice chest, so everyone was like o'doyle get in there...so he did and dan took a tireiron out of his truck and slid it through the handles and locked him in. then daves like...no stay in there a cop is coming..so he did, and i was like..hows it going officer, and daves like, well it was nice talking to you guys, i gotta go. o'doyle stayed in there a few minutes and then we told him to come out...and hes like was there really a cop? we were like no. it was funny. i stayed at dans house last night. woke up showered and then he driv me home. i had to work at 2...me madison and kim are pissed off about how we have been working till close every fuckin saturday and jessica gets it off...hmm funny how she does the schedule and gets every saturday off while i work 2 till 9:30 every saturday..funny funny funny. me and mad are gonna talk to chirs about it. well that is all. i work till 6 and then danny is coming over and hopefully stayin the night with me! woohoo!