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| 10:52pm 29/04/2006 |
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get outta my head |
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| 09:06am 06/01/2006 |
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alright! i am pissed! why cant anything ever go my way? i havent gotten financial aide yet..and i am supposed to start baker on monday...yah..dont see it happening. fuck them. so i get on my computer to rant about it in my myspace..and myspace is down. fuck them too! fuck you all!!!!!!!!!
fuck you
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| 12:36am 31/12/2005 |
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NEW PICS ON MYSPACE! |
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| do you like violence |
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| 12:46am 23/12/2005 |
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well kristinas wedding is tomorrow, and i should be asleep..but like normal...i woke up at noon, so i am not tired at all. ummmm...tomorrow should be fun. it doesnt actually feel like shes getting married, but i guess she is. eh whatever floats her boat...
open bar
cool shoes
amanda is a happy camper! |
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| 10:14pm 14/12/2005 |
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Have you ever dialed someones number, knowing that they couldn't answer, and you let it ring and just waited till their voicemail came on, just so you could hear their voice? Have you ever done it over and over again? I have...I do it all the time. I just can't help it. I miss him soooo much and I can't see him when I want to. I just want to talk to him, or just hear his voice, even if it is just for a split second. I can't go an hour with out hearing his voice, with out closing my eyes and picturing his. His eyes are just so beautiful, so intense, that even thinking about them takes my breath away. His touch is so loving that it makes my heart skip a beat. When he holds me I just want to stay that way forever. I don't care about anything else but being in his arms. I don't want to let go, but I know eventually, I will have to. I know that eventaully we will have to say goodbye. But I know that I will see him again, and I will hear his voice, even if I have to call his phone and listen to his voicemail. I can't help but think about him constantly and just want with all of my heart to be with him. I want to be with him right now...at this very moment. I miss him so much it hurts. |
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| 10:29pm 08/12/2005 |
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this thing is getting useless..i never use it anymore...ive got a myspace! haha
anyways...sisters wedding is in 2 weeks...FUCK YAH TIME TO GET WASTED! and yes that is the only reason i am going..i could give a fuck about the wedding..i dont agree with it and they are both douche bags.
DOUCHE BAGS!
at any rate..lifes been good...real good. |
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| 12:52pm 23/11/2005 |
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IF You're Broke She's SPITTIN'
IF You're Rich She Might SWALLOW |
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| 02:47pm 04/11/2005 |
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hey whats up..
new pics on my myspace..check em out!
just click on my website like retard. :D |
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| 07:44pm 28/10/2005 |
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haha my mom just told me i smoke weed in the basement...SWWEEET! |
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| o snap |
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| 12:54pm 22/10/2005 |
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um i saw a guy with a hook for a hand yesterday. whew.
danny is coming over tonight!
i have to go into work early.
fucking eh.
im real tired.
its cold outside and i have no sweaters. |
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| take a hint |
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| 01:23pm 20/10/2005 |
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um...yesterday was good. went to my dannys and hung out with him till he had to go to work. then i went and visited my mom...she got out this morning so shes doing really good. after i got home yesterday i went to aprils with erin and chilld with scarlet and i learned how to play eucre...i think thats howits spelled..eh well im a moron.
danny is coming over saturday when i get offa work and staying the night with me! i cant wait. as uncomfortable as it is, i love sleeping in my twin bed with him..cuz we are just so close...plus i actuall sleep through the night when hes there. ahhh anyways..enough of the mush....
tomorrow i am going to get a custume cuz i am going trick or treating this year!!! woohooo...me and april are going to have a party and trick or treat at her moms! im happy. i want to carve a pumpkin...bad. i dont know why..but i told dan to gank me one from blakes and let me carve it! woooohoo. |
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| you disappoint me |
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| 12:27am 18/10/2005 |
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well the past whatever have been great. but the other day i thought about how things were like...almost 2 years ago..when my relationship was on the rocks and shit..and it depressed me..there are still sooo many unanswered questions and suspisions...but i dont bring them up anymore..they are just soo old and he probably wont remember anyways..but it still eats me up inside to think about back then. i mean everything is absolutely perfect now...i mean i couldnt ask for better...but knowing about how everything used to be...kills me. i mean im over it for the most part..but there are days when i think about it...it still gets to me. i know that things are like 500 percent better than they were.. i used to cry because i didnt know where he was, who he was with, or what he was doing..and now i cry because i do know and i cant be with him. sunday night i actually cried when he left..because i know i wont see him for days..because i knew that i already missed him before he even let go of me...because i know i will always love him...i just love him so much...i cant beleive we have made it this far |
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| i am god... |
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| 09:00pm 12/10/2005 |
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today is mine and dans....3 year and 8 months anniversary...haha 4 more months and it will be four years...woohoo! i just realized that earlier..since like the second year, i havent kept track of the months..so i sat down and counted and that is what it is! woohoo! |
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| 12:13am 12/10/2005 |
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i hate being friggin bored.. my mom went into the hospital earlier...i hate not knowing how she is...today really did suck.
shit im broke...and bored....real bored.
someone talk to me....
haha
kadsfjaksdhfjashdfakhsdfkjadsf
i now use this journal for random nothingness....
how fun is that
fucking eh man...
there are these sweet pumas at work..i want them..
75 bucks..but for me they are 18 sweet! i love mt work!
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| sheesh |
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| 02:32pm 11/10/2005 |
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me and my sis were supposed to go to halloweekends...but im about broke...heres what i need to do this weekend....
-get sideview mirror for my car
-get new fuel filter for my car
-possibly get tires for my car
-buy shampoo and bodywash
-get a cheap new phone because mine dies every 2 minutes
-pay artie back some money
-pay my g-ma and pa some money for car payment
-go to armada to have dan fix all that shit on my car
yep so im about broke. |
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| 12:47pm 05/10/2005 |
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In the last 24 Hours have you...
1. Had sex: unfortunately no
2. Bought something: yep
3. Gotten sick: No
4. Been kissed: No
5. Eaten something: yah..but that was yesterday im hungry now.
6. Felt stupid: nope
7. Talked to an ex: no
8. Missed someone: yes
9. Hugged someone: no
Last person who....
1. Slept in your bed: other than me..dan, but i was there too.
2. Saw you cry: prolly dan...but then again..i dont remember the last time i cried
3. Made you cry: dont remember
4. You went to the movies with: um april and ryan i belive..
5. You went to the mall with: myself..i dont shop at the mall.. i just pay my phone bill there..or smoke in the parking lot.
Have You...
1. Been to California: nope
2. Been to Mexico: No
3. Been to China: No
4. Been to Canada: Yes
5. Been to Europe: No
6. Been to Central America: No
some more questions...
1. Do you have a crush on someone: nope
2. What book are you reading now: i dont read books..
3. Worst feeling in the world: loving someone sooo much...but not being able to see them.
4. Future KIDS names: i dont want kids but if i do..i like haley danae for a girl..if its a boy, well ima hafta put a lil more thought into it.
6. What's under your bed: spiders..and some boxes.
7. Favorite sport to watch: eh i dont like any of em
8. Favorite Location: armada. thats sad.
9. Piercing/Tattoos: yes and yes...
10. Do you drink: like a fish
11. What are you most scared of right now: money
12. Where do you want to get married: outside when the leaves are changing.
13. Who do you really hate: people.
14. Do you like being around people: some
15. Have you ever liked someone you have no chance with: hasnt everybody?
16. Have you ever cried: yes
17. Are you lonely right now: no i have me cell phone.
18. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: um..ya know i had this peice of shit song stuck in my head but i cant remember it..
19. Been in love: yes
20. Played strip poker: nope
21. Gotten beaten up: nope
22. Been on radio/TV: yes actually
23. Been in a mosh-pit: nope
24. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yah...one of my old best friends was a lesbo..i loved that girl.
25. Skinny dipped: nopre
26. Real name: amanda
27. Height: 5'5"
28. Favorite food: mm italian...food...im hungry
29: Drink: whatever.. |
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| longtimenosee |
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| 12:07pm 24/09/2005 |
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hum..lots and lots has happened...if youre not close to me, then you dont know. but to everyone else...yay..that was fun! whew...b-day party today for my mom and artie..shwing! nothing else is really new... |
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| space man |
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| 11:29am 07/09/2005 |
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this weekend was fantastic. absolutely wonderful...really it was. even though all anyone did was work on dannys derby car..but its fun...got it going...reverse isnt really there and you really need that in a figure 8..but hes got a little bit of it..so thats good i guess. sunday night me, dan, and dave were all at jbs...and we got into the deepest conversation about space...it was actually left over from the night before...cuz there were a ton of us..and chase couldnt figure out if 2 things hit each other..would they bounce off, of stop completely...since there is now weight in space or anything that would make that happen here...so anyways...we are all talking and dave is like...is space really endless..im like yah. hes like but there has to be something out there. and im like..maybe there is...maybe we are bacteria on something else..WE ARE GERMS! and hes like yah..were germs...! hahahaha. so then jb is talking about the marble at the end of men in black...and stuff..we were coming up with all sorts of ideas about space...i was like..well suppose to little rocks are going at the same rate...and they collide, and just stops..so the 2 rocks make one..and then they bump into another one..and the rock keeps getting bigger...do you suppose that maybe thats how the earth was formed? they are like..wow i dont know...it was just crazy...so many things about space..i would just much rather sit here and not think about it when im ahem...sober..hahahahahahahahahahaha.hah. so yah work work work..my parents are pissy cuz i am going to dans derby instead of the shower..my mom is like...you at least need to get her a gift..yada yada yada...der. for petes sake...why does she need a gift? what are they gonna need..theyre getting married..but they aint living together for a long ass time...so what..a blender..a toaster...a couch??? what the hell? fuck it. at least i get to go to the derby. |
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| i want a man that stands beside me |
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| 12:13pm 03/09/2005 |
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yesterday was super...i got up and went and cashed my check and then went and did a lil shopping..nothing to big. um....i got to dans at like 12:15 and i called before i got there..no answer...i got to his house and the garage door was open and his moms car was gone...so i knocked figuring dan had to be up...nope...no answer..so i went into town and got a slurpie from the gas station...on the way back to dans...i called him and im like thanks for answering the phone and the door ass..hes like what are you talkin about..i told him how i called and knocked and he was so passed out he couldnt hear either one..hes like whatever just get over here. so i did. then i noticed this white car riding my ass...low and behold its nathan...all dressed in a suit and tie for an interview...how cute. so nathan and me met up on dans street and started driving next to each other talking...till we got to dans..and then nathan said hi and bye and me and dan went back into town for some things..ended up picking odoyle and dan barnes up and running to jbs right quick...he wasnt there but we chilled at the picnic table anyways...he showed up like a half hour later. chilled some more and then went back to dans to work a lil on the derby car. dan left for work at 5 and then i took jb home and chilled at jbs for a minute...dans cousin...um...matt, and marie were there and we all sorta hung out...eventually...played some hacky sack!! woohoooooo! i misses hacky sack. i got back to warren at like...8 ish..a lil after.. went to scotts and chilled with april and scott...and then i went home and scott came back with me cuz bill was gonna pick him up...well bill was an hour late so me and scott chilled out front of my house for a minute....and that is all.. |
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